So it's been a while since I posted I kinda got discouraged because things haven't been moving as fast and smoothly as I wanted. But I guess that is a lesson in itself. For nearly two months there had been a hold up in receiving the rituximab infusions but last Thursday I received my first infusion just to see how it react in my system. So far everything is a green light but it truly takes about 96 days for it to show some results. There are still so many questions that I have, and I'm scared of the answer may be. I'm thirty- two never have had kid's before, what are my chance's now? How long will  I have to take this medication? What are the long-term effects, because I can always over look the immediate as long as the benefit outweighs the side effects.